When We Start To Realize Our Self Worth, We Stop Attracting Those Who Don’t

They were together a total of 10 years.  The relationship started out so wonderful.  Or did it? The constant calls and attention she received made her feel so loved and increased her self worth.  Or did they?  Married 3 times in the past, she was the one to end all of the relationships.  You could say, she was in charge.

This relationship was different from all of the others.  Enjoying the love and attention, later slowly began turning into little nasty remarks and hateful gestures.  He then took a trucking job so was gone a lot of the time.  He would call constantly and have her make his appointments, check his bank account for him (which she wasn’t on but had the passcode to check it whenever he needed her to.)

She would look up the best routes for him to travel and pretty much listened to his every daily detail.  That is, when he wanted to talk.  Then there were times he would say call me in an hour and she would and he wouldn’t answer.  At first it wasn’t a big deal but after awhile she began to wonder what was going on.  Why tell her to call in an hour and then let the call go to voicemail?

There were other times he would be at a truck stop having dinner and would begin showing off in front of the waitress and call her and say strange unkind things to her.  Self doubt began slowly filling her mind.  When she confronted him he would say, you’re crazy.  I don’t do that.

Then there were times when she wanted to talk with him and would call him.  Usually she got voice mail or when he did answer he was very cold to her and basically said why are you calling me?  She didn’t understand this behavior at all.  One minute he was so sweet and the next he would be hateful.

The fighting became more frequent and when he was home the time together would be great and then once again he would become hateful.  Eventually he left and she found herself alone.  But, the constant calls didn’t stop and became more of a harrassment.  When he wasn’t calling her she would be calling him, like a drug addiction.  She wanted things back to the way they were when they first met and everything was so wonderful. Or were they?

This excerpt is just a glimpse inside one woman’s roller coaster relationship with a narcissist and struggle with self worth. This can happen to anyone and I have coached many women and men who have suffered through this type of emotional abuse.

If you are or know of someone going through these struggles, please know that this is very real and a lot harder to get out of than most people would imagine but it can be done and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

This is Part 1 of a series I will be doing on living a life with a narcissist. I pray that my thoughts and inspiration will help those who truly need it.

As you journey down life’s path please realize that you are a beautiful, worthy, and deserving person. You were born with these qualities so it is time to embrace them and stop looking for them outside of yourself.  True love comes from within and it starts with loving ourselves first.

XOXO  Sharon